A Friend Gone, But Not Forgotten

Up the stairs I begin to climb
Stopping to scope the view from time to time
How I love this playhouse of mine
'Finally I'm at the top', I cheer
Don't look down, it's heights that I fear

I stand in amazement, wonder and awe
Of my backyard and the beauty I saw
Oh what fun I would have
In my gynormous backyard
Just me in my playhouse
As a pilot in the Guard

All day long I would play and play
Then tears would come at the end of the day
'Cause it would get late, and I'd be called in
That's when the crying would begin

In bed I'd lay dreaming of my wonderful day
I'd dream mostly of my backyard
And what fun I'd have tomorrow as I play

Years have passed and I no longer see
The backyard that, for many years
Had sheltered me
From the world I now know
And the world that I fear


But my memories of that backyard
Greet me like a friend I used to know
A friend I long to see
A friend I knew long ago

Sweet Slumber

I knelt by your bedside

Memories of sweeter days

Running through my head

As I sat beside you

Nothing from my mouth

Could be said

You were so weak and frail

Your hand lay gently in mine

All I could do was sit quietly

Thinking the words would come in time

And then I sang to you

The words rolled off my tongue

When I came to you

I thought nothing could be done

My eyes still shed their tears

But feelings changed

Peace was felt

No more fears, No more fears

The words I sang

Spoke peace to my heart

They helped me accept

That we could be apart

Let me sit awhile

And watch you slumber

As the angels file in

In countless number

Soon they will take you

And I will sit alone

So for now

I will sing to you this song:

"There let the way appear

Steps unto heav'n

All that thou sendest me

In mercy giv'n

Angels to beckon me

Nearer my God to thee

Nearer my God to thee

Nearer to thee!"

A Penny For My Thoughts

If I had a penny for every moment
Your smile entered my memory
For every tear that was shed
From the joy you brought to my life
I would have millions

I would travel to far lands
And see things you've never seen
I would climb the highest mountains
Swim the deepest oceans
Walk the hottest deserts
I would do it all

I would live my life to the fullest
As if you were there beside me
Taking in the view
That's what I would do

But for now
My thoughts remain penniless
Yet I am rich
For having seen the world
Through your eyes
While I had the chance

Now that's worth millions...

I'm On A Journey

I'm on a journey to eternity

My life holds meanings beyond
Look at the stars, see how they glow
My, oh my, I'll never know
Where my thoughts will lead me
Take me away to the stars
They know where they fit in
To each constellation
Not one of them left out
Take me away into a peaceful revery
I want to feel as free as a dove
For peace speaks its name
Who am I in this huge universe?
Suddenly I am alone
Why am I so scared?
Peace fills my heart
Someone is thinking of me
He cares about my sorrow
When I'm feeling blue
He surrounds me with
Sunlight and starry nights
And rain drops that kiss my tears away
I'm on a journey, I'm on a quest
My life is just one big test
Don't know which way I'll go
Or who I'll know
But I'll know when I get there
Where I should be
I'm scared, I'm confused
What if I go the wrong way?
Perched beside me, a dove
I'll follow this dove to see where it leads
I don't feel scared anymore
Someone heard my prayers
And calmed my fears
He sent me peace
And it lead me to eternity
As I look at the stars
I see they know
Where they fit into this big universe
I'm starting to see
Where I fit in
I am happy

If My Life Were A Poem

If my life were a poem
What would it say?
Would it be funny
Or sad or just gay?
If my life were a poem
Would it be happy?
Would you smile after you read it?
Or would it be too sappy?
If my life were a poem
You would want to keep reading
You would laugh and cry
I think you would be pleading for more
If my life were a poem
Such sorrow would be felt
Oh, the tears that would fall
From the pain that was dealt
If my life were a poem
You would see the heavens open up
As you witness the water of life and love
That has filled my cup
If my life were a poem
You would clearly see
That it was God's hand all along
Who was writing it for me

Questions

Are you there?
Can you hear me?
I am told that heaven is here on earth.

Were you there at my wedding?
Have you seen my children?
They are beautiful, aren't they.
Did you see him take his first step?
Did you hear when she said her first word?
They know who you are when I speak your name
Life without you just isn't the same.

How will I know when I am touching your face?
My hand reaches out, all I feel is empty space
Is your hand on mine right now?
Are you helping me along?
I can still hear your voice singing me a song
I hope you know I love you
I think of you all the time

When I think of you and begin to cry
Please do not be sad
I just miss you
And the good times that we had

The flowers are still blooming
Life still goes on
Just to know that you are
And forever will be a part of me
Makes me happy

My tears have changed from sadness to gladness
From sorrow to joy
To know that you are forever
My brother, a friend
And Mama's little boy

Unspoken Love

As I sit staring at these white walls
I feel helpless and afraid
Does anyone understand my sorrow?
I feel nothing but pain

Impatience and anger fill my soul
How could this happen to us?
Why to us?

My mother lies in that bed
Not knowing where she is or who is here
Will she ever know
What her choices have done to us?

Finally after all this waiting
"She's awake, come in one by one"
Eyes turn toward me
My time has come to face her

Will she know who I am?
Will she know of my suffering?
Do I know the extent of her suffering?
I wonder if I should hug her
.......I will.....

I walk towards her bed
My arms open wide
And a smile on my face
To hide what's inside

For a moment I feel like a parent
Comforting a child
Anger fades for a moment
And lets love enter in
I am blessed
I am blessed